Never let the fear of failure, shadow your doing of your dream. You are your own person, never let anything or anyone tell you that you can't.. because YOU CAN. When life knocks you down, get right back up on your feet and try again. You can't fail unless you try to succeed.

Saturday, January 21, 2012

It Kills Me Not To Have A Plan

Today I have been on "Allie Time." I like those days, but sometimes when I just sit at home doing nothing I feel completely just unproductive. Have I ever mentioned that i hate doing nothing? I'm one of those people that hates not having plans, and just having time to think. The positive of those times that I have to think though, I have time to just tell myself "Allie, it's okay to breathe sometimes." When I have the chance to be alone, it never fails that I put on worship music and start thinking about life.

I haven't blogged about it yet, but I have chosen to attend UAFS and play tennis. You know, I prayed about the decision of where God wanted me, and someone told me "Allie, you can pray about situations for a long time but sometimes God lays out options for us to choose from then he takes your decision, and says okay.. Let's go!" I realized that God can do things through me ANYWHERE. I really took that heart, and interviewed for the Chancellors Leadership Counsel there, and ended up getting it. 10 minutes later of finding out I received the scholarship, I was on the phone committing to play tennis as well. The decision of my future happened within 15 minutes, and after doing it... It was an excited feeling but also one of those feeling you get when you get married, "What did I just do?" I never really looked at any of the other schools, and I think that's why I'm still doubtful of it being EXACTLY ME. As time has past though, I am warming up to the fact that it will be home. I just feel like I'm going through the phase of being scared of the next chapter. Going to college is a huge step in growing up, and ready or not... Itll be here in 7 months.

I have a little less than four months of high school left, and to me... That's insane! Time has completely flown by. I was always told that life starts flying by when you hit that Jr. High/High School stage, and then once you get to your Senior Year things just fly faster than you can imagine and it only gets faster. Im careful of when I blink because if I do, I feel like what I was doing will then be gone. Although the next chapter is just ahead and it holds opportunities, I have been told to not overlook this last semester. I realize that I won't ever get these days back nor another chance to create these memories, so I'm cherishing the last days to leave a legacy at GHS. We are currently 5-0 in our Conference play in basketball, and I feel that we have a really good shot at winning state if we can all just stay focused and play our game. This team has been a blessing to me, and I'm happy that I have stuck through the hard times and not given up because I don't know what I'd do without these girls.

There has been so much that has gone on since I really blogged about my life that I would make you fall asleep if I updated you completely. Through everything I have done, my heart still burns for the Lord. As I get closer to having to choose what I end up doing with my life, the more I wonder.. Okay God, where do you want me? It kills me to not have an exact plan.
What gets me through this is a song that I have recently started listening to 24/7, that says "your love never fails, never gives up, never goes out on me." I know that I have God that loves me more than I can imagine and I trust that he won't let me down. I know that he has a plan for me.. I just pray I don't miss the door to that opportunity. If your reading this, I just ask that you keep that in a prayer that you say today.

Always know that your plans aren't Gods plans and sometimes, to see his plans... You must have none.

May God Bless you,

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Looking Back On A Great Year

Two thousand eleven has been an amazing year. As I reflect back, I can't help but to smile and think about how much God has done in my life in just one year. I feel I have grown closer to Him, and I plan to continue to in 2012. These past 365 days have been full of adventures, opportunities, love, learning , and life changing experiences. As I share with you the highlights of my year, I hope that you can take time to reflect on your year.. And think about how it has made you the person you are today! 

*Started the year off in Ozark, Arkansas with the friends I consider a blessing from the Lord. Learned how to play X-Box Kinect, crushed a popcorn can, and played Chubby Bunny! Lol

*Went to New Orleans to watch the All-State Sugar Bowl. Arkansas vs. Ohio State. Travis Sandifer went with us, & had quite the experience-Bourbon St. was a site by itself. Probably won't go back again if I could. But had a fun time seeing the scenery, Darius Rucker in concert & eating the good food!

*Mother Daughter Miss America Party

*State Beta Club Convention, & meeting Russell Dye for the first time. 

*Winning Conference in basketball.

*Becoming close to Brooke Seals. Blessing from the Lord.

*Spring Break ski trip with Dane, Tara, Jabe, Jax, and Jett.  

*Junior Powderpuff Games. Beat the seniors on a last second play!

*Emcee for Mr. And Ms. GHS, and Bulldog Review

*inducted to National Honors Society

*Prom 2011. Date: Kyle Lowdermilk

*Usher for 2011 graduation

*Runner-Up AAA Interscholastic Star Award

*Organized Vilonia Tornado Relief

*Voted Senior Class President, Beta VP

*Stuff the Bus Etna, Denning Tornado Relief

*National Beta Club Convention. Nashville, TN. (Time of my life!!!)

*Went to Chicago. Absolute BLAST! Beautiful City!

*Went on Vacation to Santa Rosa Beach as a nanny with the Aishmans & Paige Passmore. Learned how to change a flat tire:)

*Volunteered at Camp Aldersgate- Oncology and Bleeding Disorder Week. Went in not knowing one person, and left 6 days later with too many friends to count. My heart lies within that campground. Also was voted volunteer of the week by counselor staff. That was a moment I will never ever forget. Almost cried in front of everyone! Emotional week.

*Began my Senior Year with a throw back speech from Olivia Foster:) 

*Arkansas Razorback football, & Tyler being a starter. 

*Spoke at Arkansas FCA Game-Day

*Meeting Nora Goodstein from Denmark, & taking her on many first in America!


*Spoke at Southside High School FCA Fields of Fields with Devin Wyman.

*Hollywood Homecoming, and decorating the hallways for 15 hours literally. (We won though) :) Was Bogie for a night!

*Had quite the year in tennis with Olivia Foster! Conference Champions, State Champions, and Over-All (2A-7A) State Champions. 

*Turned 18! 

*Guest Speaker at Ozark High School & Junior High FCA.

*Found my home for the next four years! University of Arkansas Fort Smith. Received the Chancellors Leadership Council Scholarship, and signed to play tennis as well!

*Went to LSU, had a Razorback Thanksgiving.. And met Shannon Hocker.

*State Champion or Finalist Teams: Football, Volleyball, Golf, Cheer, & Tennis.

*Founded the greatest game alive: Farkle. 

*Had the opportunity to sponsor two kids on the angel tree. 

As you can see, this past year has had many highlights... But more than anything, I'm just thankful that I have the opportunity to reflect back to people and things. I have learned to keep a positive attitude, and look at things from a different perspective sometimes. To realize the role I play in each setting i'm involved in, & play that role the best I can.  To love, and be real with everyone I come in contact to because I never know what they may be going through. I have learned to trust in God, and let him lead me. I've found that when I do that, great things happen and that's when i find myself most happy in life.

 I look forward to 2012 and the things to come. I will continue friendships I've created, and learn from the experiences in the past. I shall not look back any longer, but look forward to what I can control. I'm so excited to graduate and begin my new journey as a college student-athlete.  I'm pumped to lead UA Fort Smith and help others to become the best they can be. I trust that the Lord has great plans for each day I'm given this year, and with that in mind.. I plan to cherish each sunrise and make the most of each day I'm alive in 2012. 

"Young people, enjoy yourselves while you are young; be happy while you are young. Do whatever your heart desires, whatever you want to do.But remember that God will judge you for everything you do." Ecclesiastes 11:9

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Thank you for helping me become ME.

Its been a long time since I've blogged last, and many things have happened! I have tried sitting down to for awhile, but seem to get side tracked every single time. Today though, I will not leave the computer until I finish. I promise. A couple updates on life: school has let out for the summer, and its great having time to do whatever! Especially to get together with my friends and catch up! At the school I attend, we hold elections for next school year at the end of the previous year. One of the biggest elections I was involved in was Senior Class President... The day of the election, I wrote a whole paper that I intended to type in a blog, but didn't get to. I won't type it all today, but I do want share a couple things that were going through my mind: "Ever since I was little, I wanted to be Senior Class President so bad its not even funny. I always drempt of leading our class to be the best. Whether that's pep-rally competitions, hall decorations, new ideas, education, or just in general.. being kind, that's the leader I wanted to be. So here I am today with the same dream actually lying before me in the hands of my classmates...." As that day went on, and votes were was announced that my dream had come true and I was voted Senior Class President! I also wrote in the paper that day that being Senior Class President #1. Gave me the chance to make my Senior Class the best it can be! #2. An opportunity to develop friendships and a heart for people, not only my friends but people i don't know. That night, my grandparents invited me over for dinner to celebrate, and at my place setting at the table, they had made a sign that said: "Madam President" It made the day even better! I am beyond excited to start next school year though, and all the exciting activites it will hold! If you are reading this, and you are Class of 2012... thank you, for helping me become what I have!

Following the election, a friend and I got together a "Stuff the Bus" event at our local Wal-Mart that would benefit the Denning, and Etna tornado victums. No, Vilonia wasn't the only town that had been hit really hard within the past few weeks. When the idea to do this came up, my mind immediately went to my experience in Vilonia. I said yes, with no hesitation because that's where my heart is. That day, our Senior Class collected $269.00 and stuffed over half of a huge school bus. I was just amazed at our community, and the love that people share. The next day, a friend of mine went down there to deliver all the goods: shampoo, soap, Gatorade, sanitizer, toothbrushes, toothpaste, water, towels, ect... We first stopped in Etna to help out at a local house and helped tear up a tree that was torn up pretty good in the front yard. Then we moved on to taking items to Denning where it was seriously heartbreaking to go through. I was driving over telephone wires! (don't know if that was safe, but I did!) Got to meet some awesome people, and provide them some things that they were in need of. So that was pretty neat. Something that I saw here that I didn't see in Vilonia was spraypaint that people had taken and wrote over their broken houses, and stop signs. Some read: "God Bless Etna." Others said, "Jesus loves you" Or "John 3:16" and "Stay strong we will get through this"--That was pretty cool to see positive attitudes. It reminds me of something that I think about often: "A bad situation can make you weak, but being weak can make you strong." After going through the town we dropped off the rest of the items to the local City Hall and met a little girl named Madeline. Her parents were both in critical condition, and her grandma had brought her to get a doll because she lost all of hers in the tornado. Luckily, I knew exactly what she needed! I had brought some of mine from when I was young.. and she absolutely adored them! It seems like everytime I do something that involves a tornado relief, I go home more helped with my life than sometimes I do to help others. So if your reading this and your a tornado victum..... thank you, for helping me become what I have!

**Something that I catch really funny involves my last blog about taking a group down to Vilonia. Hogville is an internet website that talks about the Razorbacks, and what they do. Well, Coach Petrino sent the team to Joplin to help clean up, and there was a thread on there that asked why they went to another state to clean up instead of going to Vilonia. I attached a picture at the bottom so you can see what they wrote:)

Well since summer is here, you always know that camps come along with that topic! My first two weeks of summer consisted of going to basketball camps, and bonding with my team. I am SOOO excited for this upcoming season, and the things that God is going to do. I can't say enough good about them, and how close we all are! When I got home from camp though, I walked into our house.. and didn't hear those little toes coming across the wood floors to greet me at the door. I was so excited to be home, and then realized things weren't the same. I asked mom where my dog was, and she said... "We gave him to that family we talked about giving him to." It broke my heart, but I knew it was the best for him. With our house being renovated, and Tyler playing in the fall and us never being home, I knew that being in a house with two other dogs his size.. and a family that was always home---it was the right choice but still.. I didn't get to say good-bye. After crying for about thirty minutes, I looked at pictures online of him at his new home having a blast! It boosted my spirits, but still... I'm going to miss him. I never was a big dog fan until Wrigley came into the family. After having him, it made me realize that love can be shown in the simpliest ways...He just always was cute and small. He would be by myside when i was sick, and follow me around everywhere in the house. He loved playing even though the toys were usually bigger than him. lol So yes, thank you Wrigley.. for being an awesome dog and loving me when it meant the most. I hope your having a great time at your new home! I miss you!

So today is Father's Day! My family got together at my house for the first time since the renovations, and it was really nice. I love my family soooo much! Speaking of family, and fathers.. I can truly say that I have one of the best dads in the world. He is always there for me whether it be providing money, supporting me in something, encouraging me to what I dream, helping me succeed, or just loving me and giving me the care when I need it. I think back to some of the memories we share when I was young.... I would always hide in the hallway, and he would act like an annoucer and say "Ladies and Gentleman welcome to tonights match up between the Lady Bulldogs and the Lady Airedales..... & now the starting line-up for YOUR Lady Bulldogs!!! (then acted like the crowd went wild) At guard, a 5'7 all american wearing #12.... Allieeeeee Wilsooonnnnn!!! Then here I would come running into the living room with my play uniform on slapping everyone's hands that were in there, then I would go to the middle and jump up and down and start stretching like I was someone cool. I still remember that like it yesterday. The funny thing, is that its here.. the time where I am announced, and Irun out to slap my teammates hands and get pumped up before games. Its amazing how much time flys when you reflect back. My dad is someone that I don't do a lot with, but I think a lot about. He does so much for me, and I do so little for him. So today, I thought I would do something special.. and make him a cake and decorate it really nice. He loved it! Nothing makes me more proud than to make someone smile. & I accomplished that today:)

But there is one other person that I call my Father that I owe a Happy Father's Day to, and that's God. I don't want to compare the two, because of course God has so much more to offer than my earthly father... but one thing is so true about them both. They both LOVE ME! & I'm so thankful for Dad's that love me because I am their daughter. So Dad and God... if your reading this, I want to say thank you, for helping me become the person I am, and for being the most perfect Dad any little girl could ask for. I love you.

Hoping that you have shared an awesome day with your Father and/or husband today, and thanked them for all they have done for you. May God continue to bless you in all you do because no matter what you do in life... there are things and people that have helped and will help you become the person you are and will be.

 My wise, wise grandfather and I on the day I was elected Class President!
 Jayme Stroud & I working together as Interscholastic Star Finalist with the AAA
in Etna cleaning up from the tornado.
This is precious little Madeline with her new dolls!

Not sure if you can see it, but it says, "A group of h.s. from Gwd (organized by Tyler Wilson's siter, who is a senior there) went to Vilonia to help clean up. I'm wondering if that's where the idea came from?

Wrigley Ace... I miss you.

Our house is finally looking like a home again!

 Happy Father's Day!

Saturday, May 7, 2011

All We Need Is Each Other

Wow, what a day it has been. From digging up toys in the mud and flipping sides of houses, to being fed an awesome meal and looking fancy... my day has been full of life lessons and humbling experiences. A week and half ago, Vilonia was hit by a huge tornado. It was so bad that it made Good Morning America, as well as the local news. When I saw the news stories, and pictures posted on the Internet as well as friends facebook status' who lived there... my heart broke. I knew immediately what I had to do. I called a school sponsor, and said listen.. we need to help them. Some way, some how. Lets go. So after different ideas, and speaking to the mayor of Vilonia, they needed labor workers. We got together about 30 students, including football & basketball players and just great people in general, and headed to Vilonia at 6:00A.M.

With a late night with my family, I was extremely tired... but my brain woke up the minute my alarm went off. The first thing I thought about were the people I was about to encounter and the things that my day was going to consist of. After loading the bus, and a long two and half hour drive.. we arrived to Vilonia. My eyes couldn't believe the things I was seeing, and my heart dropped as people were outside of their homes cleaning up the debris and looking at our bus hopeless. All eyes glued on our bus as if they we're saying stop here. We need your help. The further we went down the main road, the more we saw trees smashed in the middle of houses, to piles of wood and house stacked up, and signs just completely blown away. Having played basketball there, I knew that the town didn't look anything like it did before. The change was horrific. Yes I had seen pictures on the news, and Internet.. but its nothing like it in person. Its reality. People are seriously affected, and lives completley changed and destroyed.

We checked in at the high school, and were assigned our neighborhood. The trip to our area was interesting. We past by some of the nicest houses I've ever seen. Gates and pass codes to enter the driveways, and perfect mowed lawns.. with white columns in front. These houses made it look like NOTHING had happened at all. Then we took a left turn and down into this valley.... and there all our jaws began to drop. Debris everywhere. Nothing. Trees snapped in half, and chickens walking around.. horses tied to a barn post that had survived...and people begging for help. The only pleasant thing that looked beautiful was the pond that was in the center of the valley. All of these people who lived in this valley are people who own lots of land, and live in trailers. They are people that didn't have anywhere to go for the most part, and luckily most were able to find places to hide and be injured very little.

The first place we stopped at was a lady in her 40's. She had lived in this trailer for the past 10 years, the land she owned has been past down for generations in her family. She has two kids, ages 5 & 7. Single mom. She wore a grey tank top that she had written on with sharpie. The front read: "Have any ?'s I used to live here." The back read: "I used to live here. Thank you for your help. & signed her name." That was the first clue that I was in the right spot. This lady.. bless her heart had a house that had nothing at all left of it. She began to give directions of where things went: "Make 3 piles please. Wood, Metal, and Valuables." The girls got trashbags, and went to work immediately picking up broken picture frames and things that were inside the house. The boys began breaking limbs off the tree that was smashed over the top. Within 10 minutes, the tree was for the most part removed.. and in a burn pile. As we kept picking up things, you could tell where each room was. I found a remote, and picture frames.. assuming where the living room would be. & then found honey, spices, can goods, pots, pans... the kitchen. The boys carried out the shower and tub.. the bathroom. & as I kept looking around me, I wondered.. if this was me, how would I handle this? It would be soo hard for me. Everything I had ever owned, destroyed. Very little was able to keep. I would have to start over, completely. What about my two kids? Where will we live? How will I pay for meals? I got the chance to talk to the lady, and she told me her story about they left the house 5 min. before the storm hit.. and luckily no one was hurt. All she cared about was her kids. She was so thankful for the people that had donated things like clothes, and such for them. She made me realize that even though everything you've ever invested in your life are gone.. and being burned.. life will be okay because the things you NEED are being provided. With that, they can live. Maybe not how they want, but it'll do. After about an hour of debris clean up and lots of trash bags full.. we got all the volunteers that came with us around the siding of this trailer that had detached from the main part. We counted to three, and all muscles were put into it.. as we all lifted this 25 ft long trailer side and flipped it onto the base of the house where it would later be burned everyone encouraged to lift harder. The siding hit the ground flipped over, and cheers and some high fives were given for the accomplishment. The owner of the house couldn't stop saying thank you. We stayed for a little longer, and said our good-byes...sorry's.. and we are praying for you's...and moved on to the next stop.

I for sure wasn't ready for what was next. We pulled up to this yard on the other side of the pond.. that was completely trashed (as were the rest) , and trees down everywhere. The people that were working here, were a nice family from Greenbrier. The grandparent's of this family lived at this residence. The grandfather was a guy that hoarded tools. Everywhere you looked there was some kind of tool and copper. At this house... the instructions were simple. Load all the wood and trash in the trailers.. and all tools go the tarp. It was extremely muddy, and we even had a kid who slipped and his foot fell into a hole where a tree had been dug out.. and he was knee deep in that stuff. The family had two high school boys working, and of course.. I made a conversation. lol Whats new, right? The one I talked to most.. was in the same grade as me, we knew some of the same people, and was a huge razorback fan. Imagine that. lol I kinda hit the subject of making sure his grandparents were okay.. hoping he might give me the details of what their experience was. At that time, the guy's dad walked up. The guy continued with our conversation, and said.. yes, my grandparents are fine. My grandmother was in her truck over there, and those four trees fell all around her.. almost protecting her from all the other things. But she was stuck in her truck for almost two hours until the rescue team got her out. His dad took over the story pointing my attention across the pond. He said as for the people that lived right there.. its a different story. He hesitated, and said see that in the pond right there? (it was an eighteen wheeler trailer/pod storage thing) I said, yes sir.. he said, well those people decided to take cover in that thing right before tornado blasted through this area. When it did, it picked it up.. and flipped it in the air a couple times then landed in the pond upside down. Unfortunately, they couldn't swim fast enough from underneath it.. and drowned. Two of them. At that point, my eyes were fighting the tears. The pond that looked to be the only pleasant thing in the area turned grey too. He said, and the guy that lived across the street there was I guess out watching the storm? & it came faster than he expected, and the debris and things hit him, and he was found dead in the road. I didn't know what to think but sadness. 3 lives, taken. Within 25 yards of where I was standing. I swallowed hard, and said I'm so sorry.. but am thankful that everyone in your family is okay. Thinking in the back of my mind about those families who just lost a member. How terribly hard that would be. My thoughts were interupted by our sponsor telling us to load the bus.. its time for lunch. I got myself together, and finished throwing some wood into the trailer. Said good-byes.. and they were just so kind and thankful for us. It was hard leaving there because my mind was still wrapped around the facts I was just given. I good friend of mind put his arm around me and said, "You okay?" I said "Ya, I just didn't prepare myself for that." & he said, "Me either.. but I'm glad I came because for me, its realizing that materilistic things don't matter. Its the people your around. Sometimes all you have is each other. For these people, thats all they have."

After lunch, my parents came to pick me up so I could get back to my basketball banquet this evening. I couldn't stop talking about it on the way back home. I got home, and rushed to get dressed up.. and headed to the banquet. I had a major change in atmospheres.. as it went from mud puddles and boots, to an air conditioned building and heels. People began to ask about the trip, and I couldn't help to tell them about the inspiring experience. Many pictures were taken, and a delicious meal was served. Coach got up and talked about the successful season we had.. and presented us with awards. As all of our team was standing at the front looking their best.. I thought, I am soo thankful for these girls.. these coaches...facilites.. community..there was a lot that ran through my mind that I was thankful for at that moment. I thank God for allowing our town to be safe, and giving us the opportunity and chance to help those that weren't safe from the storm. I can't help but maybe ask why? Why did they get hit really hard God, & not us? It just doesn't seem fair. I can't answer that question to be honest, but its hard going from trying to see someone live off of nothing... to coming home and being someone that has everything there to live off of.

Today has been exciting, hard, and depressing yet I'm very very thankful I had the opportunity of living this day. If I had the opportunity of living today over and doing it a different way, I wouldn't change one single thing about it. Today has just blown my mind, and given me time to think about my life.. and maybe what I should be doing to help others that are in need in all seriousness. Am I really seeking to help those who live day by day worrying about what TODAY consist of, instead of tomorrow? Or have I ever thought about in life, sometimes the only thing you REALLY NEED is each other. The things you gain from each other is greater than anything you can buy. & the greatest of these is LOVE.

If your reading this, please realize that sometimes.. all people need is YOU being there for them. God can use you whether its getting a group to go the relief in Vilonia, or helping buy your neighbors groceries... you can be there and show love for them because WE as brothers and sisters in Christ, should know we have each other when the storm stirs.

"Don't ever worry and say, 'What are we going to eat?' or 'What are we going to drink?' or 'What are we going to wear?' Everyone is concerned about these things, and your heavenly Father certainly knows you need all of them." --Matthew 6:31-32

           Here are a few pictures from the day:

This is the first house we stopped at.

This is the area where 3 people died. If you look hard enough, you'll see the pond. I took these from the bus so thats why it may be hard to see how many things from the house were everywhere.

This is a shot of the valley we were in. That isn't the pond I was talking about though.

As you can see, that house is done for. The trees that have demolished it.

Some of my amazing friends that kept my positive spirits alive today!
Picture from the basketball banquet. Love these girls.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

My life & thoughts.

I never thought creating a blog, and reading others was going to make a big difference in my life. As my computer teacher, and second mom talked about blogging.. and the people who she follows, I found it interesting. Wondering why she would read other blogs of people she didn't know. Well, me being the person who is in the middle of everything.. I decided to start reading those that she talked about all the time. Now, I'm hooked. It's amazing how someones life can make such an impact on yours even when you haven't even met the person. Just of their reputation, the things people say about them, and the things they post on the Internet. Its amazing to find that so true. It goes to show that people who put their trust in God, and look on the bright side of everything finds good things that will fall in their path. Friends, if you are reading this today.. I want you to know that YOU are living a life that is being watched, and read. Everything you do and say is observed by someone. You have two choices. Set the example of who to be, or.. set the example of who NOT to be. You were created by the creator of the universe, and the same man who made all creation so beautiful.. he made you absolutely gorgeous. Men, you... so handsome. :) So this paragraph was to encourage you to look at your life, and observe what others see from looking at your life. Who are you impacting?

This last week has been full of memories & I'm willing to share all of them with you and the things I've learned. This past week was "Bulldog Revue Week." Bulldog Revue is a show that is put on by the Spirit Squads at Greenwood. Its a community wide talent show I would say, and FULL of incredible talent. This was my second year to be asked to emcee the shows. There are two shows, one on Friday.. and one on Saturday. The theme for this year's show was "Bogie on the Red Carpet" & the Academy Awards. When I found out the theme, I got so excited because I love the Academy Awards, and to be honest.. its my dream to be a part of a big award show one day. Well... its my dream to be in front of millions doing something, period. But anyway.. me and the other two emcee's got together, and made a commercial. The one and only "Sundrop." I wish I had the video so I could show you, but trust my word.. it was priceless. We worked every night this past week til about 10:30-11:00 trying get everything perfect for the show that most of those in our community would come watch. As the rehearsals started, and the talents came alive.. I was blown away by the talent in the people I see everyday. The vocals on these people are absolutely incredible! Some would win American Idol hands down they are that good. My favorite act of the evening though, was a six year old girl who sang "Turn on the Radio." As I watched from the side of the stage.. the little girl wasn't shy at all. She was walking around on the stage, popping her hip, and singing with all she had. The crowd went CRAZY after she finished. I called her over to talk to me after she was done, and asked her a few questions. The last question I asked was "Did your mom make you do this, or did you want to do this?" She replied, and kinda whispered, "My mom made me do it..." I couldn't help but bust out laughing, as did the crowd. That was only one of many memories that were made within two nights.

One thing that has been on my mind A LOT lately... is, what is ahead of me? I have this big vision in my head of being a public speaker somewhere in the world, or for that matter all around the world that is making such a big impact on the world. I want to write a book, and create a program that allows people who seriously don't have the opportunity to do something, have that opportunity. Bottom line, I want to make a difference. Somehow, somewhere, ME. Graduation is coming up for our seniors, and I'm getting sad. Graduation has never had a big impact on my life until last year when I actually had graduating friends as seniors. Last year, I got a glimpse of what its like to have an amazing close friend leave and take that next step of life without you. Its hard, in fact.. REALLY hard. That person that you spend all your time with and call to vent to, sometimes isn't there as much anymore.. and you just have to learn what your friendship is now. & realize that your friendship with that person won't change in the heart.. but things will change because of distance, and you just have to learn to deal with it the best you can. Make skype your best friend, as well as phone calls, and text messages, prayers, and when they come home.. spend all the time you can with them! This year, yes.. I have girl-friends that I'm close to that are graduating.. but there's someone that God has put in my life that I'm really going to miss. He's someone that I never have noticed until I got put in an Algebra 3 class this year. He is known as the guy that likes to fish. My family loves him, and he's best friends with my dad. You may ask if I'm dating him.. and the answer is no. But we do have a special relationship. He's ornery, and likes to give me a hard time.. but the thing that I like is his love for God. Our relationship is centered around God, and he sends me verses and I send him ones too. We've experienced an awesome fishing trip, prom, and a tornado together. All of them, I look back and just smile. Everytime I think about us.. I have to take time and thank God for allowing him to come into my life. He's showed me what life should really be about. He's taught me to laugh at things, and not be so serious sometimes. He's taught me to show people what you stand for, and not be ashamed. He's taught me to dream big, and if its God's will.. that the doing of the dream will happen. He's taught me to love the little things in life and be appreciative. He's taught me to be myself, and realize that being ME is just enough. As you can tell, he's someone that means a lot to me even though he has no clue. I sometimes wonder why God puts these people in my life, and then take them away... maybe its a stage in my life that I learn and then use what I learned further down the road? I'm not sure to tell you the truth, but what I've come to find out about my future from thinking a lot about it.. is this. Simply, to be ME. Keep striving to do the right thing, keeping a positive attitude, and helping others as much as I can.. and things will work out. People ask all the time where I'm planning to go to college.. a month or so ago, my answer was to try and get a tennis scholarship, and if that doesn't work out then I'll attend the University of Arkansas. Lately, my answer has been I'll attend the U of A.. I guess because my brother is there. Everyone who I've gotten close to in high school is there. My good friend in high school is planning on being a razorback the year I would be, and wants to be my roommate. I love Fayetteville. & it just makes sense. Today my parents were talking about opening that account for all my scholarships, and putting that money back for college. What am I doing? Am I just trying to please myself? Where is God in this HUGE plan you have for yourself, Allie? Its scary thinking that I'm about to take a step up in life, ready or not! I am putting my trust in God that wherever I end up a year and half from now.. that it be where God wants me. & I'm able to meet people, and make a difference on the campus that I attend. Until then, I will take every moment.. one at a time and make the best out the time that he is giving me each day. Whatever happens in the future is the future. I can only control what is now.

Tonight, I pray for you.. the one reading this that you may allow God to be in your plans, and not just make them yourself. After all, his plans are much greater than the ones that we can dream of. Know that you can make a difference by the life that you are living. It doesn't take your mom to "make you." YOU decide that your going to do it, and then allow God to plan the things ahead of you.

"I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out- plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for." -Jeremiah 29:11.

This is the newest addition to the family, and I held her all day on Saturday.
Soooo sweeet.

I had to put this one on here because its priceless. During the Easter egg hunt last Sunday, the kids
got caught in a down-pour but it didn't stop them from hunting the eggs! :)

This is one of the other emcee's at Bulldog Revue! So much fun!

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

The Rock

Lately, life is as busy as always.. but have had the time to breath. Our house is being completely renovated from level one to level three, and its absolutely chaotic. Floors are being ripped up, furniture is gone, the air smells like paint, there's always people at my house doing work, and my parents are always having to come together to agree upon things. Through this whole process, its made me really think about a house.. and the stories the walls could tell. The memories of you crawling for the first time in the living room or the time you threw the baseball to your dad so fast he missed it and it put a huge hole in the wall. (Yes, my brother actually did that.) How about the birthday parties you've had? The groups of people you've had over, and the many laughs you've created. I remember one time we were keeping my cousins, and for some reason we made a water balloon & i wouldn't bust. Period. They had the idea of going up in the loft and tossing this balloon up and making it go through a spinning fan and land probably 30 ft below. They trick me into standing down there to "catch it." So I did..they tossed it, went through the fan.. bounced off the coffee table and into my hands. We all thought it was so funny as I through it back up to them. After a couple more times of the repeated actions, Tyler decides to throw his fast ball to the coffee table and bust this thing without warning.. and I get soaked with water along with our T.V.! Boy that was the fastest I've ever seen him go get a towel. Or how about the times that you spend in your room with God? Talking to him about how great your day was, or how awful it was? The same walls that watch you be a rebel and get spanked as a kid, have seen you mature and have watched your heart grow into beauty. A house can tell a lot. If only the walls could speak..

A house is built by a foundation. When you see someone start to build a house, whats the first thing they do? They clear off the land. They tear down trees, and bust up rock so that the place where the house will be built is clear. Then, they level it and dig a trench so that if your pipes freeze in the winter your permafrost line is deeper and it doesn't freeze as well. Next, they build a frame all the way around the trench and place bricks in the bottom of your trench. They then remove your framing boards, and fille the inside area with gravel. & then pour your concrete. --Now this isn't to the exact "T" of how an actual foundation is built, but its a pretty good estimate. Its firm, its level, nothing is in its way, and it knows that the pipes can't freeze. *One of my first steps in my walk with God was of course the 5 most common steps: Hear, Believe, Repent, Confess, & Be Baptised. But the one step I had to get straight was how I was going to build my foundation as a Christian. Who was I going to follow? What would happen when my body felt like freezing, and I got stressed and overwhelmed? Thats when I came across Matthew 7:24-27. Its reads:

"Therefore, everyone who hears what I say and obeys it will like a wise prson who built a house on rock. Rain poured and floods came. Winds blew and beat against that house. But it didn't collapse, because its foundation was on rock. 26 says Everyone who hears what I say but doesn't obey it will be like a foolish man who built his house on sand. Rain poured, and floods came. Winds blew and struck that house. It collapsed, and the result was a total disaster."

My first step, was to know that my foundation will be on the rock because I'm willing to HEAR it, and OBEY it. So when things come my way, and things try to beat me down.. I won't collapse. I'll be standing strong because of my rock foundation. Yes, rock is hard.. firm.. and last for a long time, so you mean that I decided to go pick up a rock outside and hold it with me wherever I went/go? No.. MY Rock is greater than any rock you'll ever find outside your house on the ground. My Rock, is Jesus Christ. He wrote a book over two thousand years ago, and the text still applys today. He died on the cross for me & you. He is always there for me, and I can always talk to him. Everytime this world trys to freeze me, I know that my foundation was dug to protect me. My foundation I decided to build was with Jesus Christ, and he will protect me from freezing winters and storms that beat my house. He knows me better than anyone, and has seen every memory made. There's one difference between the walls of my house, and the Rock in my foundation. Jesus will one day speak to me about every memory I've ever made, and the difference I've made in the world through my life. What kind of foundation have you created? Do you find yourself being blown by the wind, and knocked down and the result of your life looking to be a disaster? If thats you, renovate your house. Better yet, rebuild it. Clear away all the things that are preventing you to become close to God, and find The Rock. You will be the most beautiful house in the world, if you just decide you want to stop being torn down by rain and stand strong through the storms.

Lead me to the Rock that is higher than me. -Psalm 61:2

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

The Golden Rule

These past few days I have been living in Little Rock. I was there Monday and Tuesday for an FBLA State Conference, and today I was there to compete in an interscholastic star award with the AAA. It truly was a blessing to be there today and meet the people I did.
The interscholastic star award is given to a junior in high school who truly exemplifies the three A's. ACTIVE Involvement in School Activites and Community Service, ADAPTIBILITY to Meet Challenging Situations with Courage, Perseverance and Commitment, and ATTITUDE of cooperation, dependability and application of interpersonal skills. There were over 500 applicants from around the state who applied for this scholarship. Somehow, I was chosen in the top 5 of those 500 to be interviewed for the award. The other four kids that I met today were absolutely incredible. Everyone of them were extremely nice, ready to start a conversation and was inspired by how they were living their life. You know, you meet lots of people in your lifetime.. and most come and go. These though, were people who I will keep in touch with, simply because I know they all will be successful in anything they set their mind to. They are the most caring, unselfish, and commited people. On our way out of the driveway today (at 6:00 a.m...), I prayed about the trip. I prayed and said, "God, if today I don't win this award.. I want it to go to someone who truly deserves this and needs the money." My prayer was answered when the winner was a announced, and it wasn't my name. My mom later told me that the winner's dad had tears in his eyes when his son had just won $1,000 toward his college studies. The great looking guy who seemed to be the star athlete and everything more was a kid whose family is going to have to pay for Med School. It was as if a huge weight had been lifted off the shoulders of two men. Even though $1,000 dollars doesn't go far in today's college tuition.. its a start. Its a start to something big. An opportunity to realize that you have hope in doing what you wish.

Today has taught me one of the most important lessons of life. & its the Golden Rule: "Treat others as you would want to be treated." If you do the right thing, your heart is set on the right things, you strive everyday to do right, you encourage others around you to be the best they can be, you volunteer your time to helping people in need, you are happy about life, and overcome the obstacles life throws at you through adversity.. your going to be successful and be rewarded. Rewarded not neccessarily by noriety, or awards.. but by happiness and a feeling of accomplishment. Tonight, the lesson at my church was about this, and I just laughed.. and thought: "God, you are so good!" I want to share with you a couple verses that truly spoke to me.

Romans 13:11-14 (New Century Version)

 11 Do this because we live in an important time. It is now time for you to wake up from your sleep, because our salvation is nearer now than when we first believed.12 The "night" is almost finished, and the "day" is almost here. So we should stop doing things that belong to darkness and take up the weapons used for fighting in the light.13 Let us live in a right way, like people who belong to the day. We should not have wild parties or get drunk. There should be no sexual sins of any kind, no fighting or jealousy.14 But clothe yourselves with the Lord Jesus Christ and forget about satisfying your sinful self.

I just want to leave you with a challenge. To wake up and fight in the light. You have potential to impact so many lives around you. Simply, be YOU. Treat others well, love your enemies.. and God will take care of the rest. Don't just let this be a "Oh ya! I'm going to."  and not follow through, but a "YES! THIS IS ME." dedication to what your future will exemplify. Be someone who reflects the three A's and use the Golden Rule.

May God Bless You,
Good night.